Monday, May 20, 2013

Life & Death

It has been a while! Many things have happened, some good some bad. Earlier in the month we found out the gender of our baby! On Tuesday, May 14th my childhood dog, Punkin, passed away. On May 13th my two dog children turned 6! On May 16th, my husband and I turned 26, and a friend had her baby after 53 hours of labor! On top of that there were many other celebrations including my mothers birthday, 2 coworker's birthdays, my aunts birthday, and mothers day. WHEW! A month full of WOW.

My mothers birthday came first. She came up to Portland to celebrate! 49 years old and more fabulous then ever=)<3

On May 9th, we found out we are having a GIRL!!! After 3 ultrasound professionals looked! Because, like her parents, little Bebe girl is quite stubborn and would not turn around even after being poked, bounced, and pushed multiple times. We have to go back next week for another ultrasound because she would not move, so they did not get a full profile shot. Luckily, the doctor said everything looks good! They are not worried about anything since they saw all the "pieces" (i.e. nose, lips, heart etc..) but they do want to get a profile pic. I have never met such a determined group of women! They were going to find out the sex of this baby! It was wonderful! When the last lady did one last "check" of Bebe's crotch area she said "Okay, guys"... I thought she was going to say we were going to have to wait 3 more weeks so I was feeling a little deflated (even though the whole process is amazing). Then she started to describe the parts. "This is a little girl baby" she said. I was shocked! I made a shocked noise and looked at my hubby. We both just sat there.  "Is that good news?" she asked. I said "yes. we were both hoping for a girl, its just surprising!" She smiled and patted my leg. "I am glad!" she said.

20 week old baby foot =)

Just three days after this exciting new experience I get a call saying that my childhood dog, Punkin, a spunky red-headed 13 and a half year old golden retriever , was not doing very well. Over the next 24 hours she did went completely downhill. **This is me describing how she passed so please skip if necessary**Jeff and I had to drop everything to get down to my moms house, 2 hours away, by four o'clock on Tuesday when the vet was coming to the house. I left work early to head down there. That was a hard ride. It went from sadness and discussing how unfair it was that pets, especially dogs, live such a short time when they deserve to live so much longer to anger at my mom for what I was thinking as "jumping the gun" ... There are so many emotions that one goes through when trying to process grief! Anger, sadness, happiness, nostalgia and so many more. Once we got to my moms it was obvious that Punkin was in fact ready to go. This was even more devastating then I thought. She was laying on the floor, where she had been for the last 15 hours (without moving) on a towel that she was using as a pillow but was also keeping the blood from a tumor on her neck from getting all over the floor. She looked so tired, she was panting and wheezing and straining to breath ,she had crusty eyes and nose, and every once and a while she had to sit up to catch her breath. I immediately laid next to her and started crying. The whole family took turns sitting with her and petting her for the next four hours. We also talked like normal to help her feel safe and at home. My mother, at my suggestion (and her discovery), found an amazing woman that comes to your home to send your pet off. She arrived and we talked for a while all surrounding Punkin. She gave her a sedative to help her relax, however after a few minutes she was having a harder time breathing, although she looked peaceful. The doctor said that usually the sedative will relax the body organs but when pets are at the end their bodies react this way in order to keep the body alive. We talked a little more while she filled a big syringe with blue fluid. She talked about what would happen while injecting it and what would happen after. I am tearing up thinking about it. She then shaved a little bit of hair off of her leg and began the injection. SO hard. Everyone was hysterical at this point. I had to close my eyes for most of it. Afterword she was just there...quiet. It's still hard to think about.. My sister had a really hard time afterward. Her and I have never really had to deal with death.the vet left quietly and about 30 minutes later the cremator came to get her. He was also quiet and was very respectful of what was happening. Watching him pick her up to take her away was also extremely difficult. *Deep breath* whew. I am glad I took some time before writing this. Moral of the story is you never know what is going to happen so love and cherish those close to you whether they be human or otherwise.

Punkin Dunkin 9/9/99-5/14/13

Our 26th birthday was dampened a little by Punkin's passing, but we still managed to celebrate. We went to the beach for the day with the dogs. It was supposed to rain but it didn't! In fact it was warm enough to lay in a bikini for 2 hours, which for Oregon is CRAZY! We also ate an absolutely delicious dinner, compliments of my mother=)

Birthday at The Bay House

Fauna!

Dizzy!

Random thoughts:
My last midwife appointment on the 21st was not so great. Everything is fine with the bebe but the midwife I met with was not very nice=( Hopefully she will not be my delivery nurse lol. In two weeks I will be seeing one of my two favorite midwives so that will be good. Also in 5 days we have our second ultrasound to try and get a profile pic of the baby.

We went to a friend's daughter's 1st birthday yesterday. SO cute.
I wish I wasn't so crazy busy all the time! Working full time and doing grad school almost full time is TOO MUCH!! Especially on top of being preggo and moving in July. Oh well! The school term will be over in June!! When we move we will have a pool outside I CAN'T wait!
My husband is so cute, the other day he said the thing he is most excited about moving into our own place (without housemates) is that we can have get togethers all the time with our friends=) I am pretty excited about that as well. Gotta love extroverts ;)

That's all for now!

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